Dear John

Love can be inspiring. Love can be dark and twisted. 

In this case, it's both. 

Letting go and moving on has always been a hard thing for me to do.
It's part of falling in love, and it's part of growing up.
I'm not one to wear my heart on my sleeve, but with him I did. He's the best thing that has happened to me.

 "I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up... it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be"

People often have hate in their hearts when someone tells them it's time to move on, but I don't think I ever will. He'll always be in my heart, and I am grateful for the time we had together. It was the best & happiest time of my life. But it's time to move on.

 

"Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

Dear John, I see it all now, it was wrong
Don't you think 19's too young to be played by your dark twisted games
When I loved you so
I should have known"

Change is.. good?

Life can change in the blink of an eye. 

Change is my life lately. It used to terrify me. Everyone is scared of the unknown. But why be scared? Anything can happen, & everything happens for a reason. So live life to the fullest without any fear. CHANGE IS ALWAYS FOR THE BETTER.

“The key to change… is to let go of fear”

To say that life has changed lately is an understatement. Everything about my life has changed within the past three years.


My family and I have faced many obstacles, but it has only made us stronger. I am so thankful everyday to have them in my life, because without them I would be so lost!


My parents are the strongest people I know. My mamma is a recent cancer survivor, and my paps lost his eyesight almost one year ago. But they never let anything get them down.

My incredible grandma was diagnosed with cancer right before Christmas of 2010. Her and my mom have started their own “club” as they call it. She is starting chemo next week and has been looking at wigs. Nobody should ever have to go through this. Especially her. She has the biggest heart of anyone I know. But she will beat this. She has to.

“Cancer changes your life, often for the better. You learn what’s important, you learn to prioritize, and you learn not to waste your time. You tell people you LOVE them. If it wasn’t for the downside, having cancer would be the best thing and everyone would want it. That’s true, if it wasn’t for the downside”

2010 made me realize who I truly am. I know I am a strong person and because of all these changes I have only gotten stronger. I have welcomed change with open arms, and the rewards are so worth it.

I’m a freshmen University of Utah this year and I love it! It’s so amazing to be out of high school and to finally figure out who I am and what I want from life. Med school here I come!

New Years 2011 was the best I’ve ever had and I spent the night with my best friends in this world!
Stra Bird, Sam, Becky & Moll Cat.
Don’t know what I would do without you.








Friends are hard to come by lately, and I’ve had some ups and downs. Realizing your best friend isn’t at all who you thought she was is hard. But I have moved on and my friends in my life today make me a better person. Not only do they bring out the best in me, but they make me want to bring out the best in other people.

This right here is my best friend! She keeps me sane and helps me through everything. We can spend hours doing nothing and I love every minute of it! Since we’re both so indecisive we usually spend hours arguing over what to do, & by the time we decide, the night is already gone. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. She is like my second sister.









 

Speaking of sisters…. MINE IS GETTING MARRIED!





 And I am so utterly happy for her! To find someone you love & want to spend the rest of your life with them is an amazing thing. She will make a beautiful bride! I (the maid of honor) need to get planning! I’m slacking with this quite a bit, and I’m in charge of a lot. It’s going to be so stressful, but I will love every minute of it! From cake testing, to flowers, to table cloths, it’s going to be so great. Her fiance is Keith and they’ve been dating for over 2 years. Finally tying the knot on April 11, 2011.

One more last and final thing… My cousin Eric is now a Marine. He will be leaving July 18 for training in California. I am so proud of him and his decision to join. He’s wanted to do this since he was about 6 and he will finally be living his dream! Words can’t describe how much I will miss him, but he will be serving our country proudly!








Okay okay.. a lot has changed. But it’s what makes life interesting! I’m loving every second of it, and cannot wait to see what 2011 has in store for me.

“Be the change you wish to see in the world.”